selepas lima minggu

sebelum dan selepas berkahwin.
i was wrong.
do you think things will run smoothly? no way!
saya sudah mula merasakan dugaan dan cabaran alam rumahtangga.
perselisihan faham antara suami isteri? sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit. apatah lagi suami isteri.
itu belum lagi dugaan dari pihak ketiga keempat kelima dan seterusnya.
Ya Tuhan, bukan ini yang aku bayangkan.
Tapi Alhamdulillah, saya punya suami yang cukup bertoleransi.
suami yang cukup memahami.
suami yang cukup sabar.

"it's ok b. will figure out everything together."
"i'm gonna stay by your side. don't worry"
"kita doa sama sama semoga Tuhan tunjuk jalan ye"

God knows how much i love u, husband.
Thanks b.

selepas seminggu

selepas seminggu:

1. bila keluar makan dgn bb, kitaorg still lg borak sakan, dan lepas tu baru sedar, "eh b, kita ni borak mcm lepas ni tak jumpa lagi je. last time i check, kita satu rumah kan?"

2. main osom utk tentukan siapa yg kena mandi dulu. dan most of the time, bb yg menang osom (i think he reads mind), tapi yg si kalah ni selalu je buat muka kesian, "ala bb, bb la mandi dulu".. dan bb pun mengalah dgn isterinya, last2 dia yg mandi dulu.. :D

3. berebut lompat atas katil dulu, sbb tak nak tutup lampu sebelum tidur.. dan mcm biasa, bb akan mengalah dgn isterinya ini.. :D

4. bb dah lain. serious.. i've known him for 5 years now and bb sangat lain sebelum dan selepas kawen. in a good way of course. syukur Alhamdulillah.

5. dan saat yang paling best adalah masa solat. perasaan dapat solat jemaah dengan seorang insan yg bernama suami ni, memang tak dapat di gambarkan. rasanya lepas habis sekolah menengah dulu, baru beberapa kali je solat jemaah (ya, i was in boarding school where solat jemaah is a must, lagi lagi kalau kau junior :p), tu pun mungkin solat jemaah terawih dan hari raya je kot? :D



untuk bb,
terima kasih sebab melayan seorang isteri yg sgt mengada ini.
love u b.

"sekarang dah jadi isteri, walau macam mana pun, apa yg ji mintak, mesti abe kena layan." - wan ahmad sabirin ali azizan, suamiku

dr jekyll mr hyde

" eh u kawan kepada siapa tu yang dekat subang tu? ha! anis? u ni, i tengok diam je kat ofis. tapi kenapa si anis cakap, personality u yg sebenarnya lain? she said that you're the loudest one? u stick la dgn personality + attitude mcm tu.. bagi gamat sikit ofis. hari tu si fahmi komplen dgn i yg ofis ni senyap je.semua orang buat hal masing2.. apa kata u yg jadi trendsetter?"



gulppp




anis!!! amboi amboi (gaya azwan ali)...sedap je dia ye....saya mmg pendiam la.. *terus duduk bersimpuh*





to boss fahmi yg hensem (mati la kalau dia baca..tak kan?? tak kan la dia nak baca blog picisan...),

bila saya dah start melalut tu, maksudnya, saya selesa dengan orang tu dan surrounding nya... plus nanti, kalau saya dah start bukak mulut, encik tak terlayan nanti... :D






actually the truth is,
i miss being me...............

tajuk? takde :p

mereka sangat excited
saya apatah lagi
tak sabar nak update tentang itu nanti..
tapi biar lah ada benda yang hendak di update...
rakan2, doakan segala nya berjalan lancar ya..



saya tak ready apa2 pun lagi...
ok gelabah
bye

our 4th year

this entry is specially dedicated to my dear bb. so anyone yg rasa x sggup nk menghadapi filzah in geli-geli mode, please leave this blog immediately. if anything bad happen to you, saya x bertanggungjwb..hehe

14 august 2006 - 14 august 2010
happy 4th anniversary bb!!!

i would like to say, "thanks bb" because:

1. took a really good care of me when i was admitted in Pantai Hospital back in April 2009.. i remember that time, bb x bawak kereta lg ke melaka. so, ke hulu ke hilir, bb bawak scooter je instead. everytime after class or in between classes, bb sure datang and brought me something..food ke..air ke...bb also helped me in finishing my assignments because that time, dah nk hujung sem..masa tu la semua assignment nk kena submit, lab report nk kena submit, and masa tu la nk start study..it wasn't easy..i know b..nk kena buat yg bb punya..then mine..it was excruciating. there was one time, bb brought the assignments and lecture notes sbb kena siapkan..meanwhile, bb boleh jaga ji... thanks b

2. there was one of the most memorable moment. i was on my way back to melaka from kuantan..masa dah approach tol ayer keroh, ji called bb..nk mntak tolong fetch kt Melaka central.. i thought you were already in melaka..that's why i called you.kalau tak, serious ji x call. u said that u also already on your way back to melaka, tgh drive..bila ji tanya kt mana, bb kate, "i'm on my way. bila dah smpai MC, ji jgn pergi mana2..tggu smpai abe dtg..ji lepak McD dulu". before tu bb ckp, mama x kasi bb blk melaka lg sbb u were sick that day..tp bb ckp ngn mama, bb nk blk jugak.. ji pn ckp ngn bb, "jgn la blk dulu melaka..nnti monday classes, ji sign kn la attendance bb"...tp bb still insisted nk blk melaka..so, ble ji dah smpai MC, i went straight to McD.. tggu bb..dekat 1 hour plus plus jugak la ji tggu bb...then, bb smpai.. bila dah masuk kereta bb ckp, "ji..td mase ji call ckp dah dkt tol, ji tau x abe kt mane sbenarnya?". ji mcm confius ckp la, "kan bb ckp bb dah otw.." pastu bb ckp, "mase tu abe kt shah alam lg..abe speed up sbb nk amek ji...abe x nk ji blk naik teksi ke bas..teksi mahal nnti dia charge.. kalo bas, nnti kesian ji kena bwk beg bnyk.." mase tu, rase nk luluh jantung dgr.. terharu sgt...thanks b

3. kalau gaduh mcm mana sekali pn, bb x penah lupa masa makan ji..smpai masa, sure bb tanye..walhal tgh x bertegur sapa tu...kalau ji poyo2 merajuk x nk keluar mkn, bb sure tapaukan makanan walau cm ne pn... thanks b...

4. let say kalau weekend bb nk blk shah alam, bb surely suruh ji either follow bb to shah alam or asked me blk kuantan jugak that weekend..bb ckp, nnti kalau bb xde, sapa yg nk bwk ji makan, nk bwk jln2..walhal 3 hari je kot..jumaat, sabtu, ahad..tp bb still concern kt ji..kalau ji kata, ji x nk ikut bb blk shah alam and also x nk blk kuantan, bb sure akan kasi or bank in duit or bawak ji shopping food siap2...bb ckp, kalau malas nk masak, call McD..sbb tu bb kasi ji duit..bb x kasi ji keluar...kalau ngn pikah, baru boleh... bb ckp, bahaya plus nnti ji x biasa nk naik bas pulak.. ye la.. all this time u were the only one yg amek and hntr ji ke kampus...amek and hntr ji masa makan... thanks bb...

5. ji sebut je ji nk mkn apa, or nk gi mana, bb sure akan ckp OKAY..jarang sgt la bb ckp NO.... bb x pernah berkira ngn ji pasal pape pn..duit? masa? tenaga? u name it... nk mengungkit jauh sekali la....

6. kasi hadiah best2 masa birthday and anniversary..thanks bb....

7. bnyk lg..tp kang takut bb penat pulak bace..hehe

b, thanks so much for every single thing u've done for me...love u b...

seminggu..

After a week in kuantan, and left melaka behind,something that so
sure is I miss my life back in melaka.. Hurm..


Oldies were right.. U'll appreciate something after it's gone.. And now
I miss everything about melaka..huh..
Argh.. Grow up la filzah..stop being a cry baby..


I need to move on.. I'll try..


Rindu my housemates, nisah,pikah,lina,ida
My ex-ixora ppl, anis n nawar..
My classmates, dak wani,mulan,salmiah,atiq,nodee,horny,rased,faiz,
syed ali
And of course my dear bb.. Miss u so much..
And everyone.. (Sorry if your name is not on the list, but trust me,
u guys are so special.. )


Ok.. No more sappy mappy entry after this ok.."Ya Allah, berikan lah
kami kejayaan dalam hidup kami dan permudahkan lah segalanya.."

bila masa menunggang space shuttle....

it's 5.14 in the morning..
and i'm not sleepy yet..
my last night in melaka...
hurm...

after 5 years, and the day has come....
14/5/2010...
seriously, i can't describe my feeling right this moment, but i bet u know how it feels...i mean..saying good bye...
huh....

going to burst into tears any seconds..
so, i better go...


bye friends....(...thank God i found all of u...)
bye bb....(u know how much i love u... and how bad i'm gonna miss u...)
bye melaka.....

ibu...

ibu...ibu..
engkau lah ratu hati ku....
bila ku berduka...
engkau hiburkan selalu.....


happy mother's day to my beloved ibu,
Puan Hjh Habibah bt Sa'an...

along sayang ibu dunia akhirat.....
rinduuuuuuuuu ibu....

mmmmmmuuuaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...






speaking of hari IBU, i remember when i was in primary school, i got into a fight with one friend...
because i told her that i was the only one that can celebrated hari IBU...

"hari ibu untuk budak2 yg panggil mak die 'IBU' je la...awak panggil 'MAK'...mane boleh..tunggu la hari MAK...saya sorang je boleh..."

then, adegan tolak-menolak..
u know..the typical bdak-hingusan-cat fight...
haha...
what a memory....





p/s:- oh shahir!!! oh jessica!!! haish....

tulis tulis tulis

it's been a while since the last time i posted something...
so, how u guys doing?
i haven't been to the gym in about a month...
lots of things happened and some still going on...
demam, batuk, study, assignment...
huh...excuses..

nothing much to say about actually...
oh ya...
i'm on twitter now..
i know.. i'm like century late from everyone..
so, do follow me people...
FilzahJi


p/s: going back to Kuantan tomorrow... can't wait!!! gonna miss u, bb...

idaman

was drawn by bb...
that is our future house
and our future car...
hehe....

been really busy lately with loads of assignment...
trying to manage my time wisely, so then later i won't be kelam kabut study + due assignment...
final exam is less than month away... THE Final exam...
i can do it!!! i'm going to make it!!! final semester in MMU... i got this far, and i promise it's going to be a good one...i'm going to finish this with smile on my face.. will make ibu and abah proud...InsyaAllah..


p/s: homesick....

beauty

u have beautiful eyes...
u have beautiful smile...
u have beautiful face...
u are beautiful...



but those were not meant for me...
pathetic loser...

psstt...pssttt

midterm break has reached its 4th day....
so, as usual, break means break..
no class, no books, no notes, no friends, and no bb...
i miss all of them especially the last one, BB....
the last midterm break in my MMU life...
it makes me think of the life after uni...
what will happen to me next??
seriously.. it's not fun to think of it...
huh...


whatever it is....
today is leaving and tomorrow is coming....
so, live life to the fullest!!!!~



oh.. i missed my childhood friend's wedding...
i'm sorry ye...
best wishes for him and his wife....

p/s: bb...malu la b...hehe(gedik2 smbil nyorok muka bawah bantal)

h.u.m.a.n

there are many reasons of my emotional unstable these days...
but i don't want to talk about that..seriously...
this is LIFE anyhow..

thanks bb for being so understanding....

cita-cita saya adalah......

last nite, b4 bed, me n miss rummie talked about something that so interesting (ala..ala2 pillow talk mong n aie la ni...)

we talked and discussed about our secret dream job.....miss rummie told hers but i actually didn't tell mine...hehehe...
miss rummie is always dream to be a stewardess or flight attendant... don't u guys believe it? that brain maniac has heart and soul to be on a plane helping and serving people with smile+nice outfit+makeup and such...
hehe :D

other facts about her:
- maybe it's too late for her to be part of awan dania, and she said if she has to let go her dream, she also loves to be a tour guide instead (esp for malaysian-korean-malaysian)
- this girl hopes that one day, she'll be able to travel around the globe....
- finding a perfect time to master bahasa korea.. (abis la TM nnti...bdak ni soh byr kelas bahasa pulak...)




and for me pulak,
my top secret dream job is always be a secret....
(what i told u last nite, is the third dream job on the list ye cik rummet..hehe)



and after that, i've been thinking...is taking engineering is even worth it? or i need to learn something new later and run for my dream job, my passion....
but clock is ticking, and i'll grow older every year...and by the time, maybe im too old for that...
huh....
or maybe, i just need to go with the flow?

less than half years, i'll go to the real world and start the real life...
and i'm not ready at all.................


how about you guys? what is your dream job?

jumaat, isnin, rabu, ahad, sabtu, isnin.. eh..isnin dah ke td???

my schedule is jumbling upside down right now....
hurghhh...
overdue few things ....
the word 'postponed' is all over my daily organizer...

adoi..
seriously, i need to re-schedule everything....
with exams, assignment, parties, prom (mati la..), after-graduation vacation and all....
proper time management is a MUST....
go go go!!!!
i can do this!!! eh.. i MUST do this!!!!

bandaraya bersejarah

well, i'm back..
new trimester will start on monday..
i can't wait..
yay!!!
i love campus...
say i'm lame, like i care..
u need to enjoy things when u still have the chance...

had lunch at ikea (selangor), tea time at RnR seremban (N9), dinner at K9 (melaka)
jalan-jalan cari makan sangat...haha

ok, need to unpack my stuff, and get ready for the new trimester!!!
until then, da~~


p/s: me already miss my family..sob..sob..

clock is ticking

i can't wait to start the new trimester so then i can go back to lecture halls after 3 months of off-campus-mode due to my fyp. herm..i miss campus a lot. classmates + sit in between bb and dak wani in class +lecturers (honestly, i do) + notes + books..yes..i know i sound nerdy..
well, it's not that i'm not enjoying holidays, but it just , next trimester will be my last trimester in melaka and i don't want to miss each and every moment there...
huh.. 5 years is approaching its end.. clock is ticking and will never turns back...
and i'm turning 23 this year..is this for real??
planning my future is a great thing to do right now...you know like work,car,house,marriage (oppsss..ayat provoke),money,bills, sort of..
i hope 2010 will be a wonderful year with great things, opportunities, and loves...



p/s: m.i.s.s y.o.u b.b

the day

i can't wait...
haha
gedik syndrome is attacking...
lambat lagi kotttttttt

how about yours?

my 2009 ended nicely...with endorphin rushed out, laughter and all...it was such a good ending...i enjoyed every single second of it...
how about yours?

my 2010 started on sour note...i don't think i deserved it...well,at least not on the very first few minutes of new year....tears,pains
how about yours?




7.22 am, 010110
tears are still dropping....

sayonara 2009

one of my 2009 resolution,

"sblm 2010 menjelang,
saye mahu menaikkan berat badan sebanyak 5 kg!!!!!
mahu mnjadikan berat sy=46kg...baru la berat badan ideal....... "


so,
arghhhhhh....
mission not accomplished..
sob..sob...
43 kg je..

but,
sockay..
take that into account
2010 is coming in few hours time...
46 kg!!! 46 kg!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

p/s:- fireworks!! fireworks!!!